spring in Washington.

Every day this last week I've been going on long walks by myself enjoying fresh air and the spring weather. I realized today that it's been about two years since I've been in weather like this. In Thailand when outside, we are usually sweating and getting sunburns. Since arriving to the States we have been in the frigid weather of the midwest. The crisp clean air of the northwest and sunshine with cool breezes is something I have missed.

Over the past few days I've been missing Olive so much.  Some days I am able to remind myself of  how much better off she is now, free of any pain or discomfort. But for the past few days all I want is to have her back again. Every night I sleep with her blanket and smell it before going to bed right in the crusty part that held the smell of her spit up. Last night was the first time I could barely smell it any more. I hate the thought of losing her smell.

Today the strangest thing happened.  I was walking around outside taking photos and enjoying the fresh air and got a wiff of something that smelled like Olive. Maybe it was my imagination, or a flower that smelled like her or something else...but a smell can take you back in time in a way that few other things can, and for a minute I felt close to her. I hope this won't be the last time that happens.