Three Years Old Today

Olive Hope,

What I wanted was to throw you a big birthday party today. You would be three.

I just wanted you to know that we will never forget you.  You taught us so much and continue to shape and mold our lives.

What I have is the JOY of knowing your nana is throwing you that party.

Happy Birthday my tough girl.

Dad

"You will lose someone you can't live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn't seal back up. And you come through. It's like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly--that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with that limp."-Anne Lamott

Feeling the pain of missing you today...

I didn't write this prayer, and I'm not sure who did...I remember a friend sent it to me when we were in the middle of things with Olive and I still love it.

Talked with our Akha friends Ae and Joe the other night on the phone and they said  they are waiting for little Aevi to reach 4.4 lbs before they go ahead with the next surgery. Joe mentioned that they have been in tears almost every day over their sweet little girl.

Also, here is a link to watch Colleen's Eulogy (my beautiful mother-in-law who passed away this summer after living with glioblastoma multiforme or brain cancer).